Dear 2012..

This year, I shall do the following.
And you shall not stop me, for I am legend.
Also, because I want to do them, so yeah.

Let the list begin.
I shall see no fewer than 10 bands play live.
I shall successfully learn to do a standing backsault.
I shall learn to organise everything better.
I shall clean my room once. Maybe twice. :P
I shall read books more.
I shall study more.
I shall finally pay my phone bill.
I shall also stop going over my download limit.
I shall give a present to every neighbour, as thanks to the one who provides my internet.
I shall at least attempt to write a song.
I shall not refrain from doing what needs doing.
I shall write a book! Actually, I won't.
I shall try to learn how to sing and play guitar at the same time.
I shall improve my drumming and bass skills.
I shall live through December, because the world shall not end.
I shall find a church, and regularly attend said church.
I shall do the chicken dance at least 5 times.
And finally...
I shall enjoy this year.

So.
Bit of a list.
It's more of an "I'll try to do these, because I feel I need to" list.
But hopefully it helps.
But yeah.
Happy New Year to the multitudes reading this.

The final ending, and a new beginning...

To be honest, the whole "it's a new year, it's a new start" thing has confused me. Just because it's a new year, doesn't mean anything has really changed. It's not like your life is restarting. Although, I can kind of understand it.

People see the new year as a chance to move on from what the previous year gave to them. I just use it as a chance to reflect on what's changed in my life, and what hasn't.

This year, my life changed a lot. I moved to Frankston. I had to survive by myself. I started at uni. I took up many extra responsibilities with youth stuff. Did I succeed? Who knows. I did in some aspects, I didn't in others.

All I know, is that I'm probably going to actually set some form of resolutions this year, and will try to fulfill them. Hopefully.

It'd be nice if I could.

And so it is...

I love Damien Rice. 
That is all.
Enjoy.

Refreshed...

Ever get that feeling that you have to do something.

Something that you wouldn't normally do.

Something that just seems weird, outlandish.

Could be big, could be small.

I just know that it happened to me recently.

And I can tell you, when I did it, it felt amazing.

Occasionally we'll just feel dry, like nothing is working.

Everything we try to do just doesn't help at all.

Then, out of nowhere, you get that small nudge.

That tap on the shoulder.

Then that small suggestion...

"you should do this, it'll work a treat"

And, of course, it works.

Every. Single. Time.

God is just that amazing.

Because ice-cream is just amazing...

I just ran out of apple juice.
Now I am sad.
So very sad.
Well, actually I'm not.
But hey, at least I have ice-cream!

Today... I had a meeting.
A good, fun, kind of scary meeting.
It was in regards to the program for camp this summer.
Impact, it's gonna ROCK people!

Still... it was scary, because it made me realise something.
A lot of what is happening this camp rides on me being in charge.
It rides on me organising stuff.
Not just running stuff, but being the behind the scene person.
Making sure all the items that are needed are provided.
It's kind of a big step...
One that I think I'm ready for... but it's still scary to think about.

I mean, programming can't be that hard, right?
It'll all come together though :)
I mean, it's camp.
It always works ^.^

My ice-cream melted :(

It IS just that amazing...

I've been thinking a lot about it today.

It's been quite prevalent today.

So, why not blog about it?

Music.

It moves us. It changes how we feel.

It inspires us. It challenges us.

It's an integral part of the lives of many.

And it's ridiculously hard to explain.

Today, I played my new bass for the first time.

I pulled out my guitar as well, and mucked around on that.

I heard numerous new songs and artists today.

I spoke about it to numerous friends.

Yet, I didn't even begin to scratch the surface on what music really is.

Something that has been on the edge of my mind lots recently is songwriting.

I spoke about it to friends today, and I've frequently thought about it.

I have this belief that I can't write songs.

To be honest, I've never really tried.

I've always had the "I wouldn't be good at it" or the "I wouldn't know what to write about" excuse.

And even now, laying here, I wouldn't have a clue what to write a song about.

But now I want to try it.

I want to see what it's like to piece together lyrics.

To attach them to some chords, or a riff.

To see how they go together.

And if it fits together well, I want to be able to play it.

Not necessarily show it to other people.

But to sit down, by myself, and just play my song.

That I made.

I imagine it would be among the best feelings in the world.

I also imagine it would be an extremely personal thing to do.

Writing a song, especially if it's about yourself.

Or your life.

I have so much respect for those who write it.

Even more for those who share it.

Music...

So hard to explain.

So easy to love.

So inspirational...

I like rainbows...

They look good.

I always wanted to try to find gold at the bottom of a rainbow.

There was a time where it was the most important thing in my life.

To reach the end of that rainbow...

...I always envisioned it as being an amazing event.

Rainbows (obviously), sparkly skies, a sunny backdrop.

For some reason, a pony just came to mind.

Although, I'd rather there not be one there.

And then there's the pot of gold. With a leprechaun or two, because they're cool.

Just dancing around the gold.

If I found that as a kid, my world would've been turned upside down.

It would have been amazing.

I've always wanted the supernatural world to exist.

(Note, I mean like, magic and shiz, not the God side of supernatural, because I know that exists)

But yeah, magic and stuff would be so cool.

Like, really cool.

And all the amazingly sweet creatures that'd come with such a world.

It'd be all sweet and peachy.

I love rainbows. :D